Baby Daddy

I (we) have 3 sons. It has been 17 years since we parted ways... romantically. We had all kinds of issues... tons and tons and tons of ISSUES. Drugs, gambling, abuse, jail, cheating ( both of us ) and finally it was over. Enough already! WHEW... what a damn relief. But he was not working so there was no child support... so financially I (we ) struggled.  I received some training, got a job and have been working and supporting my (our) 3 sons since then. He ( BD ) had his own personal struggles, drugs, homelessness, rehab, over the years. He always saw his (our) sons though. Him and his drama were always present in their lives. They hung out together ( every day was not drama filled ) he loves his boys and they love him. That baby boy would knock you the hell out about HIS daddy!  As much as we struggled financially...thoese boys would take food from my house and give it to their daddy! Can you believe that ish?! I would be missing tupperware and trying to figure out if I was tripping.... come to find out ... my ( our ) boys were giving food to Daddy when I was not there. Little shits.  When my (our) youngest was 15, BD moved out of state. My (our) oldest entered and is in his last semester of college ( cause he had to go back.... ) my (our ) youngest is in his second year of college and my (our) middle son....well... we just keep praying for that baby.. we continously are turning him back around to face the "right" direction..y'all pray for him.

Baby Daddy has gotten his act together and is drug free, living in his own place, sending monEy to the boys. Flying all 3 boys in to the family reunion and footing the entire bill! Y'all know flying ain't cheap. Sending them shoes and clothes. Bought me a fancy bracelet for my birthday. TOOK OUT THE PARENT PLUS LOAN FOR THE BABY BOYS COLLEGE THIS YEAR, TOOK A CRUISE WITH HIS NEW WOMAN, .....so I am happy for him... no,  really... I am , I am glad he got his ish together and  his (our) boys can see it and depend on him. I am happy to say ,...you need to ask your daddy for that ...or ask did you talk to your dad about that. I am happy he and I can laugh and joke and have great conversations. We can talk about the old times and it is good. It reminds me of the man I fell in love with and had 3 children with. It reminds me of the set of twins we lost, when I (we) were 6 months along in the pregnacy and how supportive he was. It reminds me of the good times ...before it turned bad and we could no longer recognize one another.  I am proud of him.

....and... I am jealous ... after all of that shit we wnet through.... I WANT TO GO ON A DAMN CRUISE!